Skype sucks, ....here's to a faithfully devoted wife o' mine!

So, last night was the first time in about a month that I've got to see my lovely bride and our little Irish blessing...or at least through video.....on my DVD of love that is! SKYPE officially sucks worse than Bissle, Hoover, and Electrolux combined.....or it could just be my satellite Internet connection..hmmm! Enough of a rant for now.

It was great to see my little Clare growing up so big and so happy to just be spending time Alicia. She's definitely going to break my heart when I come home, that's for sure! Along those same lines I've been worried lately of how I will affect her, coming home...whelp gotta go and gone again for who knows how long to her. Do toddler's see their time differently? Is one week to us like a month to them, how about a month.....a year? I just want her to remember me as I am, a daddy who loves and cherishes the very fact that she exists, and may someday tell me that she loves me too.

I don't know how many times in my life, in church, in countless conversations across the globe that I've heard time and again about how we are God's children and he wants nothing more than the opportunity to show us His undying love. We being the children choose our path some go astray, some gather close to God, and others waver; but all make a choice of whether to embrace His love, and devote it in return or not. It AMAZES me that I now truly have this comprehension of that type of love, not a complete and full understanding, but some minute ability to relate to it.

Past this new epiphany, I still have anxiety about returning home and not knowing how to treat this little grown up wonder that now walks, talks, and knows only mommy and a few others that give of their time to contribute to her well being thus far. I've heard that she has my personality though, and have nothing to worry about, that she'll warm right up to any guy. Clarebear we'll have to work on this later in life, but I'm okay with you being that way right now! Even if it's just for daddy's sake!

In the end, all my worry will be for not. I can't help but to ponder, pray and give it up just as quick as it came. Love you my ladies, daddy will be home here in no time! To anyone else who reads these words, please know that you too are loved, appreciated, and missed as well. Can't wait to spend some quality time as a normal everyday guy with the lot of you too!!

Hope this finds you well.